Proverbs 21

verse 2 'All a man's ways seem right to him,but the Lord weighs the heart'

haha kind of confirmation for what I thought about chapter 20!
Glad I serve and love a VERY understanding and loving God!99% of the time I try to have my heart in the right place but believe me,when it isnt,I know about it!So often I joke to Steve about doing or saying something nasty (let me explain,I feel like a doormat for others to wipe their feet on quite frequently,and sometimes I day dream about not being nice and polite for once and really doing and saying what I want too!),but more often than not,even though Im kidding,Im given a big ol' prod by God that that behaviors not loving,kind or what God wants from me or what I should want from myself.He knows my heart thats for sure!And I hope that most of the time I really do want to do what is right! (again,it is a good thing that God knows my heart at the end of the day!).

Something that made me laugh a little in this chapter was verse 19 'better to live in a desert than with a quarrelsome and ill-tempered wife'.At first the feminist in me thought 'hey!thats not fair!men can be like that too!' ,but Ive chosen to take it as a reminder (this may not be how everyone takes it,but its how Im choosing too) to be happy with my husband,to make more of an effort to not nag (he is not one of my kids,he is my equal and more often than not,my better half.Nagging him is not ok),to not take offense to everything he says (when PMS hits,the poor man gets a good 2 weeks of this!And lets face it,I can be quite serious,Steve can more often than not find a joke in everything!Times when I think he is being hurtful,hes not,its just his idea of a joke!Lighten up Natalie!).I need to remember he really is my partner in life,not a nuisance to just be put up with.I need to remember that God chose Steve for me,and me for Steve.It wasnt just a coincidence that we met,for me I honestly believe we were made for one another.I need to enjoy life with him more,to take time to enjoy him.I want this marriage to last the rest of our lives,and who wants to stay married to a quarrelsome and ill-tempered wife?I wouldnt want to be thats for sure!

Good things to keep in mind and for me to work on :)