Faith

haha after that post,I decided I need to do something positive. (and sorry the last few posts havent been happy!Seasons in life huh?!)

I dont often mention my faith on here,but Im going to now.Now I really am a firm believer in,each to their own.If someone believes differently to me,that is their right and who I am to say that what they believe in is wrong?!You get what I mean?I as a teen was super judgmental of anyone who believed differently,heck even if you were a different denomination of christian I thought you were wrong!Not cool at all.I got to know what it felt like to be on the receiving end of that treatment.
A bit of background here,but I grew up in a christian home and went to mainly Baptist churches as a kid.I gave my heart to God when I was very young.Was super involved in church,at 12 was a kids church leader,at 14 a youth group leader,at 15 created and led the youth drama team,was the leader of the intermediates for a little bit.Like I said super involved.
When Steve and I got married we decided to take a year off leadership to focus on our marriage.It didnt go down well with anyone in the church.We had people ask 'when are you coming back to serving God?",which still makes me laugh,I've always served God!We became outcasts in the church,people we thought were our friends wouldnt talk to us anymore.To be honest we moved church because we wanted some more in-depth teaching,it at the time was nothing to do with leadership.That happened when we tried to talk to our leaders,and explain why we were leaving and to thank them for everything that had done for us...yeah we got a phone call saying good-bye,and that was after years of being in that church giving up so much time for them!That and some other treatment by the same people,over the years has been why I haven't been keen on getting back into organised religion.
But (this is what I was getting at in this post haha,just took me a while ;p ),I still and always have loved God with my whole mind and heart and soul!100%!I believe that Jesus was the Son of God and died to save me from my sins.God and our faith is a daily part of our lives,our marriage,our family.We have been through some tough times and I have always loved knowing that their is a higher being who loves me,knows me and is looking out for me.I just don't believe anymore that my relationship with God has to go hand in hand with going to church.This is just MY beliefs,like I said each to their own.
But lately I have been wanting some fellowship with other Christians. I want our girls to experience Sunday school,like Steve and I did.We are thinking about finding a church,but we'll see.I have a mini panic attack about the thought of going through all that stuff again! I'm hoping because I'm an adult now,have had a lot of life experience behind me that I could stick up for myself and stand firm in my beliefs and not just believe something because a person behind a pulpit tells me what to believe.
So in saying this,I got in touch with a awesome old friend.She is a youth pastor now,along with her lovely hubby,and told me how her and a group of girls are going through a chapter of Proverbs every day this month (31 days,31 chapters).I have 9 chapters to catch up on haha. But I thought I would post on here as I go through each chapter.The objective is too read each chapter and apply what I've learnt in that chapter to my life :D Sounds like fun to me!
Baby steps right?!
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